para toda vida

armor4dreams @ 2005-01-07T22:42:00

2005-01-08T03:43:15Z

so this is the new format how do you like it? haha not like i am going to write in here anyways. i just wanted to yell to the world that I LOVE YOU KIM FITZMAURICE!!!

armor4dreams @ 2005-01-05T00:17:00

2005-01-05T05:19:13Z

this journal entry is for fu-cking around! POST EVERY COMMENT YOU CAN POST! I HATE THIS THING ITS FOR UBER NOOBS LIKE ALL YOU FUCKXORS OUT THERE! I PWN ALL YOU BIZTCHES AND BASTARDS!!!!!!

armor4dreams @ 2004-10-11T01:15:00

2004-10-11T08:19:18Z

i love you kim fitzmaurice. shes my technicolor girl.

long time

2004-09-27T01:57:20Z

its been a long time since i have written in here. i figure id just write one entry to see if anyone still reads this shit of mine. i have been good. alot of things have happened lately. to much id say to type. well if your interested in more. let me know....goodnite

....

2004-06-03T15:47:12Z

fuck live journal!

WOOO HOOO!

2004-05-28T15:44:40Z

tonites going to be tons of fun. thats all i can say. :P!

armor4dreams @ 2004-05-27T11:35:00

2004-05-27T15:38:48Z

christ i dont even feel like writing here anymore...uh i guess i have been to lazy. the prom was pretty cool. i went to six flags on sunday. it was fun. just be soooo fucking busy lately. maybe when i am not lazy ill update more.

pictures!!!

2004-05-18T03:58:48Z

so i got to see Kim today. made me happy. i have so much fun with her. we took pictures!

that smile!

damn...

2004-05-17T15:06:47Z

i cant believe i cut my hair. the long is hair is now gone. well not totally. its not short short but its short enough. haha. i cant wait until i see her tomorrow. its not like i think about her constantly. so after school today i have to get my car inspected at the DMV. that should be fun. haha i just played the guitar today in class (english class) i had to do a speech on something so i figured id do it on the acoustic guitar and then just play the whole period. it was fun.

All Hail the Heartbreaker!!

no so good.

2004-05-14T18:41:37Z

tension was very high today at my school. apparently a bunch of seniors and juniors all got arrested today for drugs. the cops have been here since 4th period, thats about 1030. its kinda messed up because now these seniors that have 23 or so days left of school might not be graduating. there were about 5 cop cars here today. i saw only one of my friends or kids that i know get handcuffed and taken away. he was a senior. this is part of the reason why i dont do drugs, i mean i sometimes drink but i never do drugs. that shits to messed up. and to believe its fucking senior year! these kids couldnt wait until the summer. god damn. the funny thing about this whole ordeal is the fact that most of the kids that got busted where the really good athletes, i mean christ the one kid is the basketball star and the other one hes like the the president of the senior class or some shit. its really sad. i mean i am friends with them, but it was just stupid to do this shit at school. i mean at school.....how fucking stupid are you?

armor4dreams @ 2004-05-11T14:33:00

2004-05-11T18:39:24Z

wow languages are so much fun. heres some Old English.

ic wolde gefaran swithor thonne wesan an.

translates to "I would rather die than be alone"

if only it wasnt a dead language. i will definitely have more to come.

oh and here is another

Ic wenan eow sceolde aswebban incer self.

"I think you should kill yourself"

i like that one. hahaha. feel free to impress your friends!

what a weekend....

2004-05-10T15:51:36Z

haha my weekend was pretty funny and at the same time it kind of sucked. well friday i called out sick to go pick up Kim and chill with her for a while. i met her mom and had dinner over her house. we just chilled in her room, played some guitar and just basically waited around until Jeff and Rick called so we could met up with them. i wanted them to meet her. it was pretty sick. after we chilled for like 5 hours they finally called around 8 or so and we left. we where going to met at Ricks house, and then leave together to go to his friends house and drink later that night. it kind of sucked though because Kims mother wouldnt let her spend the night so i had to bring her home. but i still had a good time with her. i think her and i are getting close. like we should of been 2 years ago. its funny how things happen. anyways Jeff decided to join me for the ride. it took about 1 and half hours to drive there and back. hey, its worth it. anyways Jeff and i get there around 1230 and they all didnt start drinking but some of them did. anyways they all had their own bottles of JD which kind of sucked for me because i wanted one but i didnt have any $. my poor ass, but it was cool because i got the free alcohol from the party from the night before. i drank only a few things didnt get wasted or anything, but Jeff go fucking shitfaced and it was the funniest thing ever. he wouldnt go to bed until 4 in the morning. Rick and i where babysitting the fuck the whole night. he just wouldnt shut up. it was still a blast though. anyways saturday morning i am driving home and i only had about 3 dollars on me but i needed gas. so i pull in the gas station and i decided to back up in the spot to get gas, now my stupid ass misjudged the turn and dented a brand new truck. it sucked, i was so mad. the mechanic saw me and he told me he had to call the cops and the customer. at that time you could still smell the alcohol from the night before so i was paranoid as shit. so the cop shows up and didnt say much to me, which i was happy at. but when the guy who owns the truck came there, he flipped. it was funny. he just flipped the fuck out on me. he said "your one of those fucking punks that would hit a car and pull away arent you?" and i thought to myself, yea probably. but i said to him "no sir" it was funny as hell. so now the only part that sucks is that i have to pay for this fucks truck and my car, so now i am in more debt than i was before. oh god what a weekend...

human imagination

2004-05-07T12:05:31Z

so do you believe that there other forms of life out there in the universe? ok most people believe that there are and then again some people think that they arent. now you can say that its pretty unlikely that there isnt just human life forms in the universe and i do some what believe that, to a certain point. to the point where you look at a human being, a human being is very "highly" developed no matter how you think of it. humans are very advanced, if you look at the theory of evolution we have evolved from a simple aspect of life in the ocean over billions of years to primates and then to humans. it has taken over 3.5 billions to get where we are now. now to think that there are other highly advanced life forms out there, like us is highly unlikely, for the fact that it takes so long for advanced life to develop. atleast this is what i think, based on the present theories and calculations we have made for the past 500 years or so. advanced life is so hard to sustain mainly because it requires "special needs." no matter what you can say about it. now there might be life forms out there. i am not saying there isnt. what i am saying though is that "advanced" life is highly unlikely. as sad as it sounds. those are just my thinkings.

now the human imagination, its is something that makes us such a advanced life form. its not our so called high intelligence but it is the imagination that separates us from alot of other life. the human imagination is what has made technology and advancements possible. it is something so rare that you cant find in other living things.

i would continue this more but i have to go for now. i will post more about my so called theories sometime soon.

armor4dreams @ 2004-05-05T22:35:00

2004-05-06T02:36:32Z

natural born killers...

Your Homocidal Rampage! by crash_and_burn

Your name:

Weapon of Choice:

Aborted Fetus

Your Favorite Target:

Nymphomaniacs

Your Kill Count:

569,798,792

Your Battle Cry:

"Allow me to molest your face with this rod!"

Years You Spend in Jail:

How Much Money In Damages You Cause:

$209,034,729,774,616

Your Homocidal Insanity Level:: 92%

Created with the ORIGINAL MemeGen!

the cure

2004-05-05T15:52:18Z

i think i've reached that point
where giving up and going on
are both the same dead end to me
are both the same old song

i think i've reached that point
where every wish has come true
and tired disguised oblivion
is everything i do

please stop loving me
please stop loving me
i am none of these things

i think i've reached that point
where all the things you have to say
and hopes for something more from me
are just games to pass the time away

please stop loving me

armor4dreams @ 2004-05-05T11:29:00

2004-05-05T15:43:50Z

i feel alot of times in life that i am asleep. i dont know why but i am never really awake for anything but never really asleep. eh. every things blue in this world right now. nothing seems right and nothing ever seems true. sometimes i wish i could kiss it all goodbye. get rid of it all and just start over somewhere. i wonder. i do.

the other day i saw Kim. well actually it was monday right after school. i went to her house. wow. i cant believe its been so long since i have seen her. it was like 2 years ago, when me and her talked and went snowboarding. she looks great. different but great. i was really happy to see her again. when i got to her house we decided to see a movie "Godsend" it was at 530 so we had about 1 and a half. so we just chilled at her house and we watched "SLC Punk". that movie is soooo fucking sick. it just makes me want to....uhh FUCK SOMETHING UP! after that we went to the movie theater. hmm Godsend was actually a good movie. really messed up. its of course on my favorite subject science fiction. its about Cloning, the messed up thing about it is that it could be all true in a couple of years. thats what scared me, the future. what will it be like in the year 2030? i will be alive during that time. i hope. but what the hell is it going to be like? they say we should be on Mars in 2015. sometimes things like that make me go crazy, with all the thinking i do at times. but anyways after the movie we had sometime so we went to a local coffee shop and just talked for a long time. it was good. i brought her home and met her dad. he was really cool. when we go to her house her dad was just got done putting a chimney fire out. her house almost burned down. it was crazy. so after meting him i left. it sucks though because she lives like an hour away in Andover. but i will deff see her again.

armor4dreams @ 2004-05-04T11:44:00

2004-05-04T15:46:22Z

fucking stupid things. hahaha!

Take the What High School
Stereotype Are You? quiz.

armor4dreams @ 2004-05-03T08:37:00

2004-05-03T12:43:21Z

havent updated in long time. it was pretty cool cutting school and hanging with patty. but anyways that was last week. i worked all weekend, it sucked. saturday night i met up with jay and sworde at sworde's girlfriends house. it was pretty sick, just chilling and everything. i brought my guitar over and basiclly just played it all nite. we got a good hack session going. it wass ssiick. oh shit friday i actually hung out with a really old friend/girlfriend from 8th grade. it was crazy i called her like 2 weeks ago out of nowhere and we played on hanging out soon so we did. i met up with her (Beth Ann her name) and we went to some kids house which there was alot of drunk people at. it was funny her and i where the only sober ones. it was good times. shes great i am glad i am in contact with her again. speaking of old friends, i called kim up last night out of nowhere and again we started talking, it was really cool. so actually today me and her are hanging out. so i cant wait. havent seen her in 2 years. it will be cool.

armor4dreams @ 2004-04-29T22:54:00

2004-04-30T02:59:36Z

so i ditched school and went over to patty's house. we chill and just listened to music and talked. which was really good i think we needed that. she burned me cds and i got to play her dad's guitar, which was really cool. i actually learned a song on it. its a really easy song but its still cool. i learned Dashboard Confessional "Remember To Breathe." good song.

you know every time i play guitar. i hope that some day i can get really good. its the only thing that ever makes me happy. the blissful strumming of the guitar. music makes me.

a song...

2004-04-28T16:02:04Z

A Song

blarring blue green eyes,
staring upon me never leaving my side
whatching, waiting for you to make your move
dont know what to think, dont know what to do

is this for real or is this all untrure
maybe its a dream, try not to think alot about it or you
just follow my fate, dont know where it will go
just leave me here maybe ill know
maybe ill know

but if theres one thing thats never going to change
its the way i feel right now, its never been the same
after all those half spoken words and everything that isnt right
maybe not now
but ill see you some night
some night

....dont steal my shit :P

the question everyone is faced with...

2004-04-26T16:05:12Z

every decision someone makes can bring out good and bad effects. so now i am faced in doing this. i am currently a senior in high school. what is next i ask myself. some might say, oh go to college. ok so i go to college. whats next? someone might say, get married. ok so now you have a college degree in something that you never wanted to go to college for because you where to drunk or stoned to realize what I was doing and your married. whats next? have kids you say? hmmm ok. so you pop out 2 or 3 little kids that look like your brother and sister but not you. whats next? vacation? haha ok lets go to disney world this summer. whats next? send your kids to college? ok done that. so now your 50 years old with a huge beer belly and you feel unhappy because of a decision you made when you where 19. now this is what i am stuck with. my dad says that college wouldnt be a good idea. he thinks i might get into trouble more if i stick around here, when i mean college i mean local, community college. he says i should go into the service. in reality i dont want to. but i also do at the same time because i think it would be good for me. so now this is where i am in my life. fuck. i wish i didnt fuck around so much.

emo am i?

2004-04-23T12:47:31Z

You are "Bowl of Oranges". You see life
to more than what most people do and you
genuinely care about people. You feel art and
music is the sure way of lifting your spirits.
You wish others could have appreciation like
you do, but, unfortunately, you are probably
the only one.

Which BRIGHT EYES song are you?
brought to you by Quizilla

maybe there is hope for me...

....

2004-04-20T15:56:26Z

i feel like shit. thats the only thing i can compare to. these last few days have been shitty. and i feel like even more shit because i told Patty id be able to ditch school and come and see her. which i wasnt able to because of not having enough money for gas and the fact that i got into a big fight with my family last night. i am sorry. i really am. i promise soon though that we will see each other. i know i havent been the best person to you and for that i am sorry. i know sorry just some over used word but i dont know what else to say, just forgive me for all the shit i have put you through. i know sometimes i seem like i dont give a fuck but truthfully i really do.

!

2004-04-19T12:04:43Z

wow, thats all i can say for my spring break. it was a pretty sick spring break, and i know i havent updated in a while but its mainly because i have been so fucking busy with everything. first off the only reason that my spring break was indeed at all good was because of Poison The Well. getting lost in the music of PTW live is just mind blowing. god i love that fucking band. they fucking RULE LIVE! if anyone has seen them live you know what the fuck i am talking about. Thrusday also played there as well as some other bands, they where ok. Thrusday though is really good live. they where alot better than i thought they would be. anyways so that was the "highlight" of my break. i also got a new car which was pretty sick, its not the best thing ever made but what ever is? its a 94 ford. so i am happy, as long as i can get a new job. i wanted to hang out with Patty but we never got around to it. i got my car like one of the last days of spring break we just didnt have time. i really wanted to see her. it kinda sucked....but hopefully soon we can chill. id like to go to a show with her. itd be sick!

oh god i hope....

2004-04-07T17:36:29Z

i am pretty excited for next week. next week is my spring break and its gonna be fucking awesome. Monday i am supposed to go to the Poison The Well, War Of All Time and Thursday show at the Starland Ballroom, which is going to make my night. seeing poison the well is just going to be AWESOME!! I CANT FUCKING WAIT! i am gonna throw so many fists and legs all over the fucking place its gonna be a blood bath. well not really but you get the idea. then Wednesday i am supposed to go to the Alexis On Fire, A7F and My Chemical Romance at the Chance. that will totally rock. me and this girl laura but who knows. i hope me and her go...that would be sick. i just got new strings on my guitar the other day which makes me happy because now when i play it wont tear up my fingers. i am in the process of learning Poison The Well's "Horns and Tails." which is an amazing song hopefully i get it down.

Gray chairs cold but here for me
thankfully I don't miss your skin
or the way that you always have something to say
lose myself in you
cut it into you
with my rusty fingers